Jesus sought me
Didi
(11/8/04)
Well, about a year or, 2 ago...I got involved with a religion I guess, called "Bahai Faith" which, is primarily Eastern, came from Iran actually. But,I was unhappy being Catholic,wasn't my first choice really-I'd much rather been Jewish or, something that stood out but,it wasn't as if I had a strong sense of any kind of spiritual unity within my family.There still really isn't. And, I don't think anyone cared that much what I got involved with. In fact for quite sometime n' still 2 this day I like or, maintain interest in(because they are very wise), the likes of Buddhism etc. I was influenced we'll say.
Plus, when I returned from the camp I'd attended I had lots of friends of many nationalities 2 correspond with it didn't bother me the whole inter-denominational thing I mean, I still believe in tolerance n' respect for your fellow man-no matter what you believe!
So, I wanted to get to know some youth who may have shared similar rituals but, I did succeed whether, they were Presbyterian it didn't matter, I just never thought I'd get so heavily involved &, that it would change me-for the better I hope! I never cared much for Jesus,or anything Biblical, I felt there was a God and, after a while turned my back on him too. Because it seemed religion like politics @ the best of times caused more strife!
I figured it didn't matter that nothing good would come of getting involved. Plus, alot of people round' me said Bahai's n' their philosophy was qite laid-back/good-natured, splendid!I wanted to go off to Africa r, somewhere when I was 18 n' help minister there. Do u think tho' in sum crazy way-that God/Jesus personally turned everything around. Coz now, I read n' study the Bible, I have attended a Church, sung praise to him,been open about it @ the risk of been a laughing stock. Coz, there is something about the Saviour that aggrivates people. That was my impression at first n' I won't lie that sum' preaching etc, has pissed me off, pardon my French. Sometimes I praise God but, I'm prone to getting edgy aswell like, how could I ever be blessed with a husband when I need my space/freedom think of everything they'd have 2 endure,I'm a depressive/neurotic most o' the time. But, every so often the Lord reminds me how lucky I still am, that I'm Saved, that I should be joyous, patient, kind....And, that he is always forgiving n' unlike me slow to anger. I'd encourage any1 who reads this to really think bout' who they're serving n' be open-minded n' good-hearted coz you have a place in God's plan-just let Jesus seek you.Hallelujah!Another thing I wanted 2 be was Rastafarian till'sum1 told me-purity comes from the inside-out.Amen-D x